DON'T WAIT UNTIL 2012

Every year around this time, people begin to do two things.  One is to make plans for the money they will receive from their tax returns and make all of their New Years resolutions.  These two things are sure to be going on as I speak in many if not most households.  However, I try to shy away from both.  Why?  Because I was always taught to never count your chicken before they hatch and because I try to live in the present.  You will lose your mind waiting and anticipating something that you want to happen but have no control over.  Child I know some people that have so many plans for 2012 but are at a stand still right now.  What is really going on?


When God calls you to action, he isn't telling you to wait a couple of week and or months, he means NOW!!!  If there is something that you want to do, there is nothing wrong with putting it into action now.  Life is not promised, so you should never act as though it is.  Don't walk around claiming that 2012 is your year without acting in the present.  My time is now, I pray that God allows it and me to continue on into 2012 because if it does..........  I will have a leg up on all of those who are waiting (lol).  There is nothing wrong with claiming your victory ahead of time, but please don't neglect today, waiting on tomorrow.  God has some great things left in 2011, so don't miss out on them.  

THANKFUL!

I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am for all that God has done for me.  It is amazing what can occur and transpire throughout the course of a year.  This year has proved to be very challenging for me but I thank God for it all.  Last year this time I had gotten my first chemotherapy treatment for a cancerous tumor that was removed from my breast.  I remember feeling so alone and depressed.  There is nothing worse than feeling alone when you are surrounded by people who love you.  Well, that is that place that I was at....... BROKE!!!  Broke both spiritually and financially, BUT GOD!!  In the midst of me receiving all of these different medications to assure that I was Cancer free, I acquired a condition that affects my eyes, called Uvetis.  It was literally as if trouble was all around me.  I felt like I was in a tunnel and the lights were off............. their was no end in sight.  When I was physically alone, I cried like and baby but when others were around I kept quiet and smiled.  For a long time and even now there are a number of people who had no idea what I was going through.  I am such a strong person and that is what people see me as, and I refused to be anything less.  I was afraid of all the press that my illness would get from people in the street and more than that, of those who would speak death instead of life.  I am a firm believer that you can't share your life with everyone because their are negative people who's mind frame is just as damaging as a gun.


I thank God for His word and the vessels that he uses and for my ability to receive.  I remember one day I was in my room crying and my son came in.  He looked at me and said, "mama please don't die, me and Daja need you to raise us".  He made me realize that I needed to fight and that I had to.  After me and Zay finished talking, I got up and took a bath and during that bath I cried and I prayed.  I asked God to clean me!! To wash away all of that doubt!!  Then I promised God that I would be a better person if it was His will that I live through this situation.  I begin to change my attitude and be more positive from that day forward.  Now I am not going to lie and say that my life changed over night but I begin to feel better.  I felt better because I begin to appreciate the people around me, who loved me.  I begin to see all the things I had to be happy for.  I could identify with the fact my situation could be worse........  When I tell you that a positive attitude is just as important to your health as medication, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!!!  


Now during the course of this year, I have found so much to be thankful for; my God, my family, my friends, healing, happiness but most of all..........THIS JOURNEY!  This Journey has changed my life in ways that I never imagined.  I have become a greater woman all because of it.  I have learned to trust God.  I learned that you have to be open to receiving the love that people have for you.  I learned the value of my smile and that it is tied to the happiness of those who love me.  I learned not be consumed by pity, things and people.  All things that I have known for a while but along the way, I lost track of them.  This journey made me get back to the me that God always intended for me to be.  It has taught me that my trials are not just mine and to share them with others because I might be that vessel that God uses for some one else.  My testimony is filled with pain, not just the pain of this particular chapter of my life but many, many more.  And if I have to go through the hardship of reliving them all to help someone else, I will.  I know that all of the things I have encountered have been a set up so that I could do God's work.  So that I could help young girls and women that are in similar situations come out victorious.  So I say to you.................  TRUST GOD, BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE, WHO YOU ARE AND REMEMBER..............  ALL THINGS WORK FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE GOD!!!!

YOU ROCK!!

I have been sitting on this blog for a while for personal reasons, but I am officially ready to unleash.  I know that many people do a lot of bandwagon jumping when different events take place, and I did not want to be one of those people.  However, I have such a strong message attached to the movement.  Now that some of the hype has died down....I am ready to break my silence.  Well let me start by saying that the entire Black Girls Rock movement is great!!!  I think that it is important to continuously applaud and encourage the efforts of our young girls.  However there are so many others who ROCK and who need the same push.  People need to learn to love themselves and identify with what makes them ROCK.  I say it all the time, God created us all with purpose, with that purpose and hard work, we can all ROCK .  I know that all of us aren't bold and out going.  Some of us need that extra push or encouragement, and some are halted by fear.  These things are the reasons I am writing this blog.  


I just think that the Black Girls Rock! movement is amazing and very needed.  Our youth need to know how important and appreciated they are.  Honestly, I think that this holds true for so many people, not just black girls.     White girlS, Black boys, White boys, Men and Women of all races, ages and sizes.  We all need to be encouraged and made to feel important at some point.  There are a lot of people who work hard to make others smile, to make sure that things go and happen the way that they should and all they want is a pat on the back.  Although we all should be aware of our gifts and abilities, some people need to be reminded that they ROCK!!!


Let me tell you, God created us all with purpose and we have been given gift(s).  However, it is up to you to use what you are given.  You may not always have a fan club or cheerleaders, it is up to you to know that you ROCK!!  In order for you to know that you ROCK, you have to identify with why you ROCK!!!  Your positive attitude, your loving nature, your beauty, your compassion for others, all of these things and many others are why you ROCK!!!  What it is important to know is that your situation nor your circumstances make you and they can't break you unless you allow them to.  Many of you know exactly why you ROCK but you allow fear to paralyze you.  As long as you step into the waters, the fear of drowning no longer controls you no matter what happens from that point on.  The devil and all the naysayers want you to let fear control you.  They want you to believe that you don't ROCK.  They want you to give up on God's promise, but you got to keep it moving!!!


YOU ROCK!!!  AND I CAN'T STRESS IT ENOUGH!!  TAP INTO YOU GREATNESS AND MAKE YOUR MEANINGFUL IMPACT ON THE WORLD......................  WE ARE WAITING!!! AND IF NO ONE ELSE TELLS YOU.........................YOU ROCK!!!!!

100 YEARS OF OMEGA!

100 years of Omega

 The mighty purple and gold

The eternal brotherhood filled with Unconquerable Souls.

100 years of Omega

It all started at Howard U

With, JUST, LOVE, COOPER AND COLEMAN

The founders of the MIGHTY QUE!

100 years of Omega

They couldn't have known at all

What an impact was being made

In THIRKIELD HALL.

100 years of Omega

Although the story has been continuously told

One could never imagine  how ESSENTIAL

FRIENDSHIP WAS TO THEIR SOULS.

100 years of Omega

Thousands of strong, educated brothers

Knowing that if there wasn't OMEGA

They would never pledge another.

100 year of Omega

The Mighty Bruhz of Que

Through MANHOOD, SCHOLARSHIP, PRESEVERNCE AND UPLIFT

They always "SEE IT THROUGH".

100 years of Omega

Many often wonder

Why there is so much pride

In those SONS OF BLOOD AND THUNDER.

100 years of Omega

The BRUHZ will never die

As long as there is a strong, educated black man

There be a QUE PSI PHI!!!

Me

You can like it, you can love it or you can hate it.........  I'm going to be me!!!  I have lived my life for other's in the past but not anymore.  I live my life by my rules, because I have learned that is the only way to be happy in your life.  The first law of nature is self, so even when others love you and have your best interest at heart, they are their first priority. God created us all with purpose and he gave us certain things that make us who we are.  It took me a while to tap into the person that I was but now that I have arrived............. I aint going no where!!!  

Maui Bigelow, is one of the most honest, trust-worthy, loving people you may ever meet.  I love hard, like Mystikal said, "you best to be my enemy cause I'm a deadly friend"!!!  If I love you, I go hard for you and with you because I want the best for you.  Now with all the love that I have in my heart, there is still another side..... I have zero tolerance for bulls*&t and have no problem straightening what needs to be straight.  I am very verbal and will voice my opinion easily.  However, I never speak ignorantly, I speak on what I know, not what I think I know.  I know that my personality is not one that everyone can deal with but, it is mine.  I know that I am far from perfect but I try to be the best that I can.  My heart and my intentions are good and God loves that.  


I need for more people to start living for them and loving who they are, because if they did the world would be a much happier place.  Except who you are and know that you serve a purpose because if you didn't have a purpose..........God wouldn't have created you.  You have to except the fact that everyone is not going to be on your team and most importantly, you have to be fine with that.  Their are people in the world that are insecure and looking for someone to prey on, the moment you start to doubt who you are.................. you will become their victim.  You existence is sad when you allow other to hurt you with you........  When you are able to identify and accept who you are, you are in control.  You can change what you aren't happy with, embrace what you love and enhance what is lacking.  It is your prerogative to be exactly who you want to be, and to walk in God's purpose for you.  

OWN IT!!! (READ AT YOUR OWN RISK)

Well, life has hindered me from reaching out to you like I have wanted to, but I have so much to say!!!  I am sure that for the next couple of weeks you will be hearing a lot from me, because I have plenty that I plan to share.  Well there is something that bothers me about some people, that is their inability to identify with themselves.  It drives me crazy, and it make me sad for them.  How is it realistic for someone to lose sight of who they are and the things that they do?  I just don't get it!!!  No matter what you are, or what you do, you have to OWN IT!!!  If you don't like whatever it is, change it(if you can) or learn to live with it.  If you don't OWN IT, than it will own you and people will forever use it to hurt you.  

What a fool I would be if I got mad every time someone called me fat or implied that I was fat, knowing that I am.  I know that I am fat, hell I am the person that buy all my plus sized clothes, I look at myself in the mirror several times a day. So who cares how many times someone else says I am fat, It doesn't effect me and especially not in a negative way.  However, this would break some people down.  Now I know plenty of people who allow their reality to hurt them and I just don't get it.  The fact is the body is just a place of residency for the true person that you are.  Nothing that the world sees is you, it is just a shell.  I have heard people say a million times, "girl you got a pretty face", which I do identify with the fact that I have physical beauty.  But even if I were ugly as hell, I would still be just as great.  Now don't get me wrong, I love being ALL DOLLED UP (shameless plug.......lol) but when I am not, I am still just as beautiful.  I am not saying the package isn't an important part of life, because it is.  Your physical presentation is the first thing anyone sees and that is what they judge you according to initially.  So take care of yourself, make sure you look good but work on what is most important;  the beautiful you that lives within and if it is apart of you...... OWN IT!!!!


     I have a friend who is very promiscuous but if someone implies or states that she is, she get  hotter than a tea kettle.  This has been going on for years and for years it has puzzled me.  I mean come on, you have sex with three or four guys a month.  I think that it is safe to say, you are loose!!!  You are doing this by choice not force so you may as well OWN IT!!!  Unless of course you decide to stop............ I mean who the hell cares, if that is what you choose to do.  Just know that you are the reason that the label has been placed on you, so OWN IT!!!
What I am really trying to stress is that, you are who your are in spite of how good or bad it is and unless you have the ability to change it, you might as well OWN IT!!!  No matter what you do in this life, people are going to have something to say that doesn't agree with you and what you are doing, that is just one of the facts of life.  Fat, ugly, smart, pretty................. your physical presence is not who you are.  We are all like gifts, the wrap may be pretty and it may be ugly but either way, the good stuff should be inside.

SLAVE?

I HAVE BEEN WRITING AND RESPONDING TO BLOGS ALL DAY AND I MUST ADMIT, I AM VERY ENLIGHTENED IN MANY AREAS.  ALTHOUGH I KNOW THAT I AM BOTH SMART AND INTELLAGANT, I ALSO KNOW THAT THERE IS MUCH FOR ME TO LEARN AND I AM EAGER TO DO JUST THAT.  ONLY A FOOL WOULD THINK THAT THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO LEARN IN A WORLD THAT IS CONSTANTLY CHANGING.  I AM A VERY VOCAL PERSON AND I ENJOY SPEAKING ON DIFFERENT TOPICS, I NEVER WANT TO FIND MYSELF SPEAKING IGNORANTLY, SO I TRY TO STAY INFORMED.  ONCE I AM INFORMED, IT IS MY RESPONSIBILITY TO FORM MY OWN OPINOIN.  TODAY  WHILE READING AND RESPONDING TO A FACEBOOK STATUS, I WAS FORCED TO ASK MYSELF THE QUESTION THAT I AM NOW ABOUT TO ASK THE WORLD.  WHAT ARE YOU A SLAVE TO? 

SLAVERY IS  BEING HELD IN A STATE OF INVOLUNTARY SERVITUDE AS THE PROPERTY OF ANOTHER.  IT IS THE STATE OF BEING UNDER THE CONTROL AND INFLUENCE OF SOMEONE OTHER THEN YOURSELF.  I KNOW THAT WE HAVE THIS VIVID PICTURE OF WHAT SLAVERY MEANS BUT IN MODERN DAY, MANY OF US ARE STILL ENSLAVED.  TODAY PEOPLE STILL MAINTAIN THAT OPPRESSED, SLAVE MANTALITY.  IN STEAD OF SPEAKING LIFE AND ECOURAGING A BETTER WAY, WE CHOOSE TO CONFORM TO THE THINGS THAT SOCIETY SAY ARE APPROPRIATE.  MANY OF US HAVE TO LEARN THAT IT IS A BADGE OF HONOR TO BE WHO YOU ARE, WITH OUT ALL THE EXTRA FIXING.  MATERIAL GOODS DON'T CHANGE WHO YOU ARE BUY ALL THE GOLD, POLO AND GUCCI YOU WANT, IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY IT WON'T MAKE YOU.  LEARN TO THINK OUT OF THE BOX AND UNDERSTAND WHAT THE WORLD REALLY IS ABOUT.  GOD CREATED US ALL WITH PURPOSE AND IF YOU ARE LIVING IN YOUR PURPOSE, IT SHOULDN'T MATTER WHAT YOU DON'T HAVE.  THE FACT IS YOU HAVE WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO HAVE IS A DESTINY FULLFILLED. 

BACK TO THE QUESTION THAT I ASKED EARLIER, WHAT ARE YOU A SLAVE TO?  IS IT DESIGNER BRANDS?  IS IT GOSSIPING?  HOW ABOUT DRUGS?  MAYBE IT IS SEX..... OR EVEN MONEY........ ARE YOU HOLDING YOURSELF IN A STATE OF SLAVERY WITH YOU NEGATIVE THINKING AND ACTIONS?  IT IS IMPORTANT THAT YOU IDENTIFY WITH THE THINGS THAT OPPRESS YOU BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T, YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO OVERCOME THEM.

WHO ARE YOU

It took me a long time to come to terms with the person that I am.  I thought that so many irrelevant things defined who I was, things like clothing, other materialistic goods and even other people.  I was so wrapped up in what others thought until I privately begin to embrace the person that people said I was. I was wasting so much time embracing a person that didn't exist instead of loving who this body housed.  In the midst of all this, I learned something very valuable, there is a big difference between embracing something and loving it.  When you embrace something, you take hold of it.  You hold it close to you, for whatever reason but that doesn't mean you love it.  Now when you love something, you have profound feelings for it, you have the strongest form of affection for it.  You can embrace something and not love it, with ease but it is hard to love without embracing it.   When I was embracing the person others said I was, I was not at all loving the true me.  It took me going through life trials to begin to truly love and embrace the real me.  I literally looked in the mirror one day and asked myself, "WHO ARE YOU".  I then made a list of all of the characteristics that I possessed and begin to exhibit those things.  Yes I was talked, laughed at and lied on, hell I still am.  However, now that I know who I am............. I could care less!!!

So I ask you, who are you?  Are you that fat insecure chick that is willing to settle?  Are you that big butt with no brain?  Are you that promiscuous girl looking for love in all the wrong places?  Are you less of a woman because you have more to love? Are you that designer bag you are carrying?  Are you that car you are driving?  Are you just a waste of a pretty face?  Are you some lazy heifer sitting around letting the world pass you by?  WHO ARE YOU?  I will tell you who you are, you are that person that lives within you.  That smart, intelligent, fun loving, kind, important person.  You are not those wide hips, big boobs, long hair, pretty face, designer clothes and big butt.  Never allow others to define who you are because they are probably defining what they see instead of who you are.  Do you know how many people seem to be one thing but are really something totally different? I will tell, millions!!!   Looks are deceiving, so let your actions define you.

JUST ENOUGH

I OFTEN WONDER IF MEN REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB IT IS TO BE A WOMAN.  YOU HAVE TO MAINTAIN MULTIPLE SKILLS AND BE ENOUGH OF THEM ALL.  I KNOW THAT ALL MEN HAVE HAD THE PLEASURE OF EXPERIENCING A WOMAN SNAP AT SOME POINT.  WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW IS WHY. MANY TIMES IT SEEMS TO BE OVER SOMETHING SMALL, BUT IT IS A COLLISION OF MANY EMOTIONS DUE TO THE MANY HATS WE MUST TO WEAR.  A WOMAN’S LIFE IS BASED AROUND ACTIONS THAT ARE MEDICALLY CONSIDERD BIPOLAR.  BIPOLAR IS DEFINED AS THE IDEA OF MOODS SWING FROM ONE EXTREME TO THE OTHER.  THESE MOODS ARE NORMALLY POLAR OPPOSITES, WHICH IS WHERE THE NAME COMES FROM. WOMEN HAVE TO BE JUST ENOUGH OF SO MANY THINGS TO BE FUNCTIONAL IN THIS WORLD; MEN LET ME BREAK IT DOWN FOR YOU SO YOU WILL KNOW!!!

WOMEN HAVE TO BE STRONG ENOUGH NOT TO LET THE WORLD BEAT US DOWN. BOLD ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH WORLD TREATING US LIKE WE ARE LESS THEN MEN. WE MUST SOFT ENOUGH TO NURTURE CHILDREN. SMART ENOUGH TO EDUCATE A NATION. WOMEN HAVE TO BE CRAFTY ENOUGH TO FIX TORN CLOTHES, AND DOMESTIC ENOUGH TO COOK AND CLEAN. YOU KNOW WOMEN HAVE TO BE SASSY ENOUGH TO BE THE BADDEST CHICK AROUND WHEN WE STEP OUT. WE MUST BE SEXY ENOUGH TO SATISFY OUR MEN.   AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST FAITHFUL ENOUGH TO TRUST THAT GOD WILL BALANCE IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FROM HINCE FORTH MEN, CONSIDER ALL THAT A WOMAN HAS ON HER PLATE BEFORE YOU COMPLAIN, JUDGE OR ADD TO IT.  ASK YOURSELF IF YOU COULD BE ENOUGH IF YOU HAD TO……..

NU PURPOSE

I AM SITTING HERE REJOICING OVER THE THINGS THAT GOD IS DOING IN MY LOVED ONE'S LIVES.  MY DEAR FRIEND (NU PURPOSE IS THE GROUP NAME) WON HER FIRST GOSPEL AWARD TONIGHT, AND I AM SO EXCITED.  GOD GAVE HER SOMETHING SPECIAL AND IN SPITE OF ALL HER TRIALS, SHE USES IT TO GIVE HIM GLORY. HER TALENT COULD HAVE TAKEN HER MANY OTHER PLACES BUT SHE CHOSE TO WALK THE PATH THAT HE HAD LAID AND NOW HE IS REWARDING HER.  MANY TIMES WE MAKE BAD CHOICES AND DETOUR BUT THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO GET BACK ON TRACK.  GOD WILL GRANT YOU YOUR HEARTS DESIRE IF YOU STAY FAITHFUL AND DO HIS WORK.  SHE IS THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF FAITHFULNESS, WHICH IS WHY SHE FOUND HER TRUE..................... NU PURPOSE.

PURPOSE IS DEFINED AS THE REASON IN WHICH SOMETHING EXIST, OR IS DONE, MADE, USED..............  GOD CREATED US ALL WITH PURPOSE.  MAY TIMES AT SOME POINT IN OUR LIVES, WE LOSE SIGHT OF OUR PURPOSE BECAUSE OF OTHER LIFE VENTURES.  HOWEVER, THOSE OF US WHO TRULY KNOW AND LOVE GOD ALWAYS FIND OUR WAY BACK.  THE THING IS OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS NOT ABOUT BEING PERFECT, IT IS ABOUT BEING FAITHFUL IN SPITE OF.  GOD KNOWS THAT WE ALL HAVE AND WILL SIN BUT HE CONTINUES TO LOVE US.  THE THING IS TO SEPARATE YOUR DESIRES FROM YOUR PURPOSE. THE THINGS YOU DESIRE CAN BE REWARDS FOR BEING FAITH AND WALKING IN YOUR PURPOSE.  YOUR DESIRES CAN ALSO HINDER YOU FROM WALKING IN YOUR PURPOSE, THE CHOICE IS YOURS.

WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?  WHAT IS IT THAT GOD CREATED YOU TO DO?  HOW ARE YOU USING YOUR PURPOSE FOR THE UPKEEP OF HIS KINGDOM?  THESE ARE ALL QUESTIONS THAT WE MUST ASK OURSELVES.  YOUR PURPOSE IS A MAJOR PART OF YOUR CONNECTION TO GOD BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT HE CREATED YOU FOR.  WHEN YOU WALK WITH HIM AND WORK FOR HIM, YOU TOO CAN FIND YOUR NU PURPOSE!!

SISTERS

WE COME IN A VARIETY OF COLORS.  WE HAIL FROM DIFFERENT WALKS OF LIFE.  WE COME IN ALL SHAPES AND SIZES.  WE SHARE MANY SIMILARITIES AND JUST AS MANY DIFFERENCES.  THERE WILL NEVER BE A TIME WHEN TWO OR MORE OF US ARE TOGETHER AND WE ARE UNABLE TO RELATE IN SOME MANNER.  IN THE MIDST OF EGO'S, JEALOUSY, AND TONS OF OTHER INDIFFERENCE'S, WE ARE CONNECTED. THIS CONNECTION IS UNIVERSAL AND CROSSES EVERY LINE THAT IS DRAWN IN FRONT OF US.  WE ARE SISTER'S IN THE SORORITY OF WOMANHOOD.   

IT HAS BEEN STATED THAT WOMEN ARE NOT CAPABLE OF MAINTAINING STRONG BONDS WITH OTHER WOMEN.  THAT OUR EGO'S MAKE AND BREAK THE RELATIONSHIPS THAT WE COULD HAVE WITH ONE ANOTHER.  MANY SAY THAT WOMEN ARE OFTEN TIMES CONSUMED BY JEALOUSY.  ALL OF THESE MAY HOLD TRUE IN SOME FORM BUT WE ARE MUCH GREATER THAN THAT.  ALTHOUGH OUR ATTITUDES AND CHARACTERS ARE DIFFERENT, OUR GOD GAVE US A NUMBER OF IDENTICAL GIFTS.   HE DESIGNED US TO BE EMOTIONAL, TO BE NURTURE'S AND TO BE STRONG!!!   NO MATTER WHAT BAD HABITS OR INTENTIONS WE MAY HAVE, THESE ARE THINGS THAT WE ALL POSSESS.  

THE JOB OF A WOMAN IS DIFFICULT AND IT IS NEVER DONE. WE HAVE TO WEAR SEVERAL HATS, ALL AT ONE TIME.  WE ARE THE MOTHER'S THAT GIVE BIRTH TO A NATION.  ALTHOUGH WE ALL ARE NOT BIOLOGICAL MOTHER'S WE ARE ALL EQUIPPED WITH THE SAME GIFTS IT TAKES TO BE A MOTHER.  WE ARE THE NURTURE'S OF ALL WHO SURROUND US.  WE ARE FILLED WITH  MORE EMOTION THAN ONE COULD COMPREHEND.  IN SPITE OF ALL THAT WOMAN ARE,  IN SPITE OF ALL THAT WE ENDURE, WE MUCH SUSTAIN OUR STRENGTH BECAUSE WHEN EVERYTHING IS SAID AND DONE WE HAVE TO PULL IT ALL TOGETHER. THE WORLD LEANS ON THE STRENGTH OF WOMEN.  ALL THE GREATNESS THAT WE CONTAIN IS FROM GOD AND HE INSTILLED IT IN US SO THAT WE COULD PASS IT ON.  WOMEN ARE CREATED BY GOD WITH GREAT PURPOSE. 

 WE ARE DAMAGED BY THE HIGHS AND LOWS OF LIFE, THINGS LIKE INFIDELITY, MOLESTATION, ABUSE AND THE LOSE OF LOVED ONES.  HOWEVER, IN SPITE OF ALL THIS WE REMAIN!!!  WE ARE FILLED WITH PRIDE AND KNOWLEDGE THAT HAS BEEN PASSED DOWN FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION. WE HAVE BEEN FLOODED WITH LIFE'S TROUBLES BUT WE REFUSE TO DROWN.  WHY, BECAUSE WE KNOW THE GOODNESS OF GOD.  WE KNOW THAT THERE ARE SO MANY WHO DEPEND ON OUR STRENGTH.  YES WE HAVE BEEN VICTIMIZE BUT WE REFUSE TO OWN THAT BECAUSE WE ARE GREATER THAN THE ACTIONS AGAINST US.  WE EXPOSE OUR AGGRESSOR'S BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT THE SHAME LIES IN THEIR ACTIONS, NOT IN OUR EXISTENCE.  

SISTERS, THE NEXT TIME YOU FROWN ON YOUR FELLOW WOMAN BECAUSE OF YOUR DIFFERENCES, THINK ABOUT ALL THAT YOU HAVE IN COMMON.  THINK ABOUT THE STRUGGLES THAT YOU GO THROUGH ON A DAILY BASIS.  CONSIDER HOW YOU WOULD FEEL IF YOU FOUND YOURSELF IN THE SAME SITUATION.  REMEMBER THAT IN SPITE OF OUR DIFFERENCES.................  WE ARE SISTERS

LITTLE DRUMMER BOY

People may not believe this but the "Little Drummer Boy" is my favorite christian song.  It is such a testament of our lives and what Jesus is and/or should be to us. Whenever I feel down on myself, this is my go to song.  It tell No matter how much money we have or what our worldly possessions are, they will never exceed His greatness.  He accepts us as we are regardless to how rich or poor we are.  He loves all of us the same,all he wants from us is our best!!!  I have never heard this song and not had the same reaction............  I am always brought to tears.  I think that I cry because I know that in spite of all of my flaws and imperfections, He still loves and accepts me.  I acknowledge the fact that I am a work in progress, I am not perfect and everyday is a struggle.  However, He loves me no less than he does a 30 year christian.  God is not asking for smoke and mirrors, he wants us to come to Him naked.  Stripped of all the worldly possessions, He only wants you...........  I know that many of us say that real friends will love and accept you regardless and this may be true.  But who do you know will love you like Him?  Who will take you at your weakest, love you and build you up to what you know you are capable of?  Who will keep you covered when you feel the world is against you?  Man (mama, daddy...........) is subject to leave you but He never will!!!


ALL HE WANTS IS YOUR BEST...... YOUR BEST MAY NOT BE AS GREAT AS THE NEXT PERSON'S BEST BUT IT PLEASES HIM!!!  GOD DOESN'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM US THAT HE KNOWS YOU CAN'T PRODUCE, ALL HE WANTS IS YOUR BEST!!!!

WHITNEY HOUSTON & BOBBI KRISTINA- LITTLE DRUMMER BOY(VIDEO)

THIS SKIN I AM IN!!

I AM MORE THAN COMFORTABLE IN THE SKIN THAT I AM IN!!!  I DON'T THINK THAT I AM PERFECT BUT WHATEVER I AM I LOVE IT!!! I DON'T HAVE ONE INSECURE BONE IN MY BODY.  WHEN I STEP OUT I KNOW THAT I AM JUST AS AMAZING AND DESIRABLE AS THE NEXT WOMAN.  I AM BOLD AND BAD ENOUGH TO STEP OUT ASIDE JANET JACKSON AND HALLE BERRY AND NOT FEEL THE NONE THE LESS.  IT IS SAD THAT SOCIETY HAS PLACED ALL OF THESE STEREOTYPES ON US BASED ON PHYSICAL FEATURES AND OTHER IRRELEVANT THINGS.  ALL ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE ARE NOT DUMB AND/OR ARROGANT.  ALL FAT PEOPLE DON'T SUFFER FROM LOW SELF ESTEEM.  EVERY PERSON WITH A NICE BODY ARE SEX OBJECTS OR SNOBBY.  WE HAVE TO LEARN THAT WE ARE NOT REQUIRED TO CONFORM TO ANY OF THE TAGS THAT SOCIETY PLACES ON US.   I MEAN REALLY, WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT ANYWAY!!!   


YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO EMBRACE THE FACTS OF YOUR EXISTENCE NO MATTER WHAT THEY ARE.  ONCE YOU ARE IN TUNE WITH WHO YOU ARE, NO ONE CAN USE IT AGAINST YOU.  I AM A PLUS SIZED WOMAN AND I HAVE BEEN FOR YEARS, AND IT DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL LIKE ANY LESS OF A WOMAN.  I AM CONFIDENT IN WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF.  I KNOW THAT MY PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES ARE BUT A SMALL PIECE OF WHO I AM.  I HAVE BEEN TEASES AND TALKED ABOUT BUT MY FEELINGS HAVE NEVER BEEN HURT BY ANYTHING THAT WAS TRUE.  I HAVE BEEN CALLED FAT.......... I HAVE BEEN CALLED A BITCH...........  AND MY REPLY TO BOTH ARE YEAH, AND!!!  I KNOW THAT I AM OVER WEIGHT, I AM THE PERSON THAT PURCHASES THOSE SIZE 22 CLOTHES.  I KNOW THAT I CAN BE A LITTLE BITCHY AT TIMES, DEAL WITH IT OR KICK ROCKS!!!!  NO MATTER WHAT A PERSON THINKS OF ME, I HOLD MYSELF IN HIGH REGARD.  


SO MANY TIMES PEOPLE ALLOW THEMSELVES TO BE HURT BY THE THINGS THAT OTHERS SAY.   ONE REASON IS THEY HAVEN'T COME TO TERMS WITH THEMSELVES. TWO, BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT HAPPY WITH THEMSELVES.  WE HAVE TO LEARN TO LOVE OURSELVES SO THAT OUR CHILDREN CAN INHERIT THE SAME SELF LOVE.  MANY TIME PARENTS (ESPECIALLY MOTHER'S) PASS ON SELF ESTEEM ISSUES TO THEIR CHILDREN.  OUR CHILDREN WATCH AND MIMIC MANY OF OUR ACTIONS AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT YOUR CHILD IS IN THE SAME RUT YOU ARE IN.  I TALK TO MY KIDS ALL THE TIME ABOUT HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT THEMSELVES.  I LET THEM KNOW THAT NO ONE IS PERFECT AND THAT THEY NEED TO LOVE THEIR INNER AND THEIR OUTER IS JUST A SHELL.  I TELL THEM THAT WE ARE LIKE CELL PHONES........... IT CAN WORK GOOD HAVE ALL THE RIGHT FEATURES AND APPS BUT THE SCREEN IS CRACK OR SCRATCHED.  THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT THE CELLPHONE ISN'T ANY GOOD..........  I HAVE A SON WHO IS MORE INTELLIGENT THAN MANY ADULTS.  HE IS VERY HANDSOME BUT HE IS A BIG MAN SIZED BOY, AND HE HAS LITTLE MAN BOOBS.  THE KIDS PICK ON HIM AND SAY THINGS ALL THE TIME BUT YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAY..... "MAMA I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT CAUSE ONE DAY I AM GONNA BE RICH AND THEY WILL BE SOME WHERE WISHING THEY WERE"!!!  YOU HAVE TO TEACH CHILDREN TO BE INDEPENDENT INDIVIDUALS, LET THEM KNOW THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH GOING AGAINST THE GRAIN.  VARIETY IS THE SPICE OF LIFE, AND THERE IS NOTHING HAPPENING IN THAT BOX, SO GET OUT OF IT!!!!  

WHO CARES WHAT OTHERS FEEL ABOUT YOU!!! IF YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE GREAT TO HELL WITH YOUR DRESS SIZE, YOUR COCKED EYES OR YOU BIG NOSE.  THE DETAILS OF YOUR EXISTENCE WILL NOT CHANGE AND IF THEY DO YOU WON'T BE YOU ANYMORE.  THE PEOPLE WHO DON'T APPROVE OF YOU, MY APPROVE OF A DIFFERENT YOU.  HOWEVER, THERE WILL BE A ENTIRELY NEW GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS THAT FIND FLAWS IN THE NEW YOU.  SO UNLESS YOU ARE OCTOMUS PRIME(OR ONE OF THE OTHER TRANSFORMERS) OR PLAN TO CONSTANTLY REINVENT YOURSELF, GET COMFORTABLE IN THE SKIN THAT YOU ARE IN!!!!!!!!!

Protect your dreams.....

I have learned that you can't expect others to always be supportive and encouraging of your dreams and the efforts you make.  During my journey, I have met a number of  so called "positive people" who tried to down play, destroy and discourage my dream.  Not because they don't see my potential, but because they did see it!!!!!!!  AND IT SCARES THEM......It is historically proven that people make efforts destroy things that they fear and disagree with.  Slavery and the Holocaust are two example of this.  Both the Jews and the Africans were admired for their strength, abilities and intelligence and for this reason, they were both victimized and oppressed.............  September 11, 2001 is another example of how people will try to destroy what they disagree with.  The greatest example ever, is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.....  And I could easily go on and on......................  However, I just want you to know that you have to be mindful of who you allow to see your vision.

You should always handle your dreams with care!!!  Never share them with those who you aren't sure are in full support of you and your dream.  Just as the Bible says that that there is power in touching and agreeing, there is power in touching and disagreeing.  You don't want to find your dreams in the hand of someone who is not in support of it because they will put forth as much effort as possible to destroy it.  I know a lot of people who are trying to obtain things in their lives and every time they are close to the mountain top....................  they find themselves back at ground zero.  Why?? Because they have powers working against them.  Sometime it is best to work in silence, execute your plan and display your finished project.  This is not being shady or wrong, this is just protecting your investment(dream).  I know that what God has for me is for me.  However, the devil is busy and he may not be able to destroy God's plans, he will try.  So remember to guard your dream with your life because,“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”(unknown)

SEASONS

For everything that God created there is a season.  Throughout the course of our lives, we experience different seasons.  It is extremely important that you pay attention to God for instruction because you don't want to plant good seeds on barren land.  We must learn that just because God has promised us a fruitful harvest doesn't mean we will be able to pick our fruit when we want to.  God's promise is not like that of man, it is sure and definite.  It is not temporary and filled with all types of clauses.  They only thing God wants from us is honor, to honor him in the manner that he deserves by living a certain type of life.  In order for us to have the things that we desire, we have to know what season we are in................................

WINTER is the toughest season because the cold puts everything on halt(frozen).  This is the time you have to trust God more then ever because winter is so unpredictable.  As we all know, sometimes winter weather is short lived and it begins to thaw soon and sometimes winter conditions last well into spring.  There are even times when you think that winter is over because you have a few sunny days and then.......................  in comes another cold front.  Anything that is planted in winter, will never grow during this season because the weather is too cold.  Winter is the season that normally test the faith of many of us because if we have a long winter, we tend to question God.

SPRING is the beautiful season in which every thing grows.  This is the season when our lives have the most balance.  There is enough rain and sunshine, everything flourishes .   This is the time when we can reap all of the harvest that God has promised.  We can be fruitful and multiply!!!!! However, we have to be sure not to pick your fruit soon or too late, timing is everything!!

SUMMER is kind of tricky, because it is the season in which you experience the most light but there are also a lot of storms.  Many times the summer harvest depends on the how bad the storms are.  It is when we are able to see how strong the seeds you planted are.  If they are strong enough, they can weather the storm and if not............................. (you get the picture)

FALL is when the winds of change begin to blow.  It is what prepares us for winter.  Many times the change that you encounter during fall brings on an early winter.  We tend to want to hold on to summer during the fall because it is so hard to embrace change.  We have become accustom to the warmth.....................  However, we need to trust God and know that change is good.

Pay attention to God, be aware of the season that you are in.  Embrace the things that God has for you both good and bad because in the end, it will all be for the good.  Are seeds that you want to sow but if you want to reap the harvest of the sweetest fruit, make sure it is planted in the right season.

BLACK BROTHER.......

THE BLACK MAN HAS BEEN TORN DOWN THROUGHOUT HISTORY.  THE REACTIONS OF ALL THIS PAIN AND SUFFERING ARE THE THINGS THAT WE EXPERIENCE FROM THEM NOW.    THESE THINGS ARE SO MUCH BIGGER THEN THE HERE AND NOW, THIS IS A GENERATIONAL CURSE THAT ARE MEN ARE WRAPPED UP IN.  ONLY GOD AND STRENGTH CAN BRING THEM OUT.  IT ALSO DOESN'T HELP THAT MANY WOMEN DESTROY GOOD MEN AND ME WHO PUT FORTH AN HONEST EFFORT.  MEN DEAL WITH THE SAME ISSUES THAT WE DO, JUST IN A DIFFERENT MANNER.  JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT EMOTIONAL AND RUNNING AROUND CRYING AND ACTING BIPOLAR DOESN'T MEAN THEY AREN'T HURTING.  SOCIETY HAS MADE WOMEN FEEL THAT THESE MEN THAT CAME FROM KINGS ARE NO LONGER HEIRS TO THE THRONE.  SOCIETY PAINTS A PICTURE THAT IS LESS APPEALING THEN THE TRUTH ABOUT THE BLACK MAN AND THE YEARS OF HARDSHIP THEY HAVE HAD TO ENDURE.  AT SOME POINT WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LEARN TO EMBRACE OUR BROTHERS AND GIVE THEM SAME BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT THAT WE WANT AND DESERVE.

HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT THE HISTORY OF OUR BROTHERS?  HAVE YOU EVER IMAGINED THE PAIN THAT IS ASSOCIATED WITH BEING A BLACK MAN?  WHAT IF YOU WERE A KING WITH MANY WIVES AND CHILDREN, HIGHLY RESPECTED, STRONG AND POWERFUL..... THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THAT CHANGED.  WHAT IF YOU WENT FROM BEING AND HAVING EVERYTHING YOU COULD IMAGINE TO BEING PROPERTY AND BEING TREATED LIKE THE LOWEST FORM OF LIFE.  CAN YOU IMAGINE WATCHING YOUR WIVE, MOTHER AND/OR DAUGHTER RAPED AND BEAT AND NOT BEING ABOUT TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT?  WELL THIS IS ONE SMALL PART OF THE PAINFUL EXISTENCE OF THE BLACK MAN.  BEING BROKE DOWN AND REDUCED TO NOTHING WHEN YOU ONCE FELT AS THOUGH YOU HAD EVERYTHING.  THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF THE DECLINE OF THE BLACK MAN.  THESE THINGS SET THE STAGE FOR MANY OF THINGS TO COME.  FORCED TO BE FATHERS TO CHILDREN THAT YOU KNOW BELONGED TO THE MASTER.  NOT BEING ALLOWED TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR FAMILY AND BE THE HUSBAND AND FATHER THAT GOD CREATED YOU TO BE.  EVEN AFTER SLAVERY, ALL THE WAY TILL NOW BLACK MEN ARE STILL TREATED UNFAIRLY AND OPPRESSED BY SOCIETY.  DENIED RIGHTS AND THE ABILITY TO CARE FOR THEIR FAMILY BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN.  TREATED UNFAIRLY AND DISCRIMINATED AGAINST IN THE WORK PLACE BECAUSE A UNEDUCATED WHITE MAN IS BETTER THEN TEN BLACK MEN WITH DEGREES.  YOUNG BOYS AND MEN PLACED IN JAIL AND THEN RELEASED TO SOCIETY WITH NO RESOURCES.  PUT IN SITUATIONS WHERE THEY FEEL OBLIGATED TO DO ILLEGAL THINGS SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY WANT TO PROVIDE FOR YOUR FAMILY.  THESE ARE THE STORIES OF SO MANY BLACK MEN.    NOW PLEASE DON'T GET ME WRONG, MEN ARE NOT INNOCENT BY ANY MEANS BUT WHAT I AM SAYING IS THERE ARE FACTORS THAT CONTRIBUTE TO MANY OF THE NEGATIVE PRESS BLACK MEN GET.  IN 2011 WE ARE STILL DEALING WITH SOME OF THE SAME ISSUES.  OUR COUNTRY MADE HISTORY WITH THE ELECTION OF THE FIRST AFRICAN AMERICAN PRESIDENT.  HOWEVER, HE IS HISTORICALLY THE MOST DISRESPECTED PRESIDENT TOO..... WHY, BECAUSE HE IS BLACK!!!  THERE HAVE BEEN OTHER LESS CAPABLE PRESIDENTS THAT DIDN'T GET THE TREATMENT THAT PRESIDENT OBAMA RECEIVES.  THIS IS PROOF THAT THERE IS A LACK OF RESPECT FOR THE BLACK MAN.   

WOMEN, WE ARE NO BETTER!!! A LOT OF US TEAR BLACK MEN DOWN INSTEAD OF BUILDING THEM UP.  WE FALL IN LINE WITH WHAT SOCIETY WANTS US TO DO.  HOWEVER, WHEN YOU TEAR DOWN THE BLACK MAN, YOU ARE ALSO TEARING DOWN THE AFRICAN AMERICAN FAMILY UNIT.  IT IS TIME FOR US TO GET IT RIGHT.  OUR CHILDREN NEED THEIR FATHERS JUST AS MUCH AS THEY NEED THEIR MOTHERS.  MANY TIMES WOMEN SERVE AS A CRUTCH FOR MEN AND THIS IS NOT AT ALL WHAT I AM SUGGESTING.  IT IS GOOD TO BE SUPPORTIVE BUT YOU CAN'T TAKE CONTROL AND TAKE ON THE ROLE OF THE MAN.  MEN BY NATURE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE STRONG, GOD WANTED THEM TO BE THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY.  HOWEVER, MANY TIMES FOR WHATEVER REASON THEY AREN'T.  SOME WOMEN TAKE CARE OF MEN THEY ALLOW THEM TO BE LAZY.  YOU SHOULD BE MOTIVATING HIM TO TAP INTO HIS GREATNESS AND PUSHING HIM TO CLIMB MOUNTAINS AND TEAR DOWN WALLS.  EVEN IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO MAINTAIN A RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN, NEVER STOP HIM FROM BEING A FATHER TO HIS CHILDREN IN ANY CAPACITY.  HE MAY BE A HORRIBLE BOYFRIEND BUT A GREAT FATHER.  YOU CAN'T MAKE YOUR CHILDREN SUFFER FOR THE PAIN THAT HE MAY HAVE CAUSED YOU.  CHILDREN LOVE THEIR PARENTS REGARDLESS TO THEIR FLAWS.....  I KNOW THAT MANY TIME WE FEEL THAT THE FATHER HAS NO RIGHT TO THE CHILDREN IF THEY AREN'T PROVIDING FOR THEM FINANCIALLY BUT THIS HURTS THE CHILD MORE THEN ANYTHING.  SOME BATTLES AREN'T YOURS, THEY ARE THE LORD'S SO LET HIM HANDLE IT..........  WOMEN WE HAVE TO GET IT TOGETHER AND HELP OUR BROTHERS GET IT RIGHT.  SO THAT OUR SONS CAN BREAK THE GENERATION CURSE A WALK IN THE GREATNESS OF THE KINGS THAT CAME BEFORE THEM..........

BAG LADY

It is so important that woman learn not to be bag ladies.  Many of us tend to carry the baggage of our men, family and friends.  When we aren't carrying that baggage, we are carrying the baggage of the past. It doesn't matter what type of woman you are or from what social status you hail............... WE HAVE ALL HAD SOME SORT OF BAGGAGE!!!!  Many woman who consider themselves "classy and/or high dollar" tend to think that their struggle is different from the common woman.  However, it is not!!! BAGGAGE IS BAGGAGE WHETHER IT IS IN A GUCCI BAG OR A PAPER BAG.... Baggage will do one of two things or both.  It will either SLOW YOU DOWN OR WEIGH YOU DOWN!!!

We all know that God created women to be nurtures and we are very emotional as well.  This is why many times we find ourselves fighting battles that are not ours, especially with the men in our lives.  Often men use the caring nature of some women to their advantage.  They latch on to women that are "good" and that will be good to them.  Men come with baggage, drama and an assortment of issues just like woman.  Many times they enter into relationships or situations with women knowing that their affairs are in total disarray.  And because we (woman) are such nurturing creatures, we put it in our bag......... All that baby mama drama, the woos of not being able to find a job, not having the money needed for certain things, family issues, friend issues, illegal activities............................. AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON!!!!  We have to learn when to say when.  It is one thing to support your man but it is another to carry all of his burdens. Be mindful about loading your bag up with his shit because you may get stuck with it all.  I mean honestly what can you expect from a man that enters into a relationship bags and bags of bullshit?

I myself and one of those women that carries a lot of other peoples baggage.  I am a very caring and concerned person when it comes to my loved ones.  Many times I get entangled in their lives and their problems.  I am working very hard to bring this to a minimum because it is damaging.  I have lost connections with a few key people because of this.  It isn't that I am nosy or controlling but I want the best for them.  I just want to help my loved ones.  I want them to be as happy as I am if not happier.  However, I have learned that it isn't my job nor am I capable of doing this. I have learned that you have to let people find their own peace in whatever situation they are in.  You can not create happiness for those that you love.........  Happiness comes with the security and comfort that each individual finds with themselves.   People evolve in their own time, not the time that we want them to.  Hell, If you spend too much time worrying about what they have going on, you will neglect your star player................. You!!!  So now when people come to me with issues, I listen and give advice but I don't get all entangled in it.........  As a friend my job is to be there for them no matter what, not to take over the situation and solve the problem.  

Often it is hard for woman to be happy because of the baggage that they carry from the past.  You can not hold an individual accountable for the actions of another.  You have to learn from each experience that you have and move on when it is time.  This holds true for both friendships and relationships.  I know that I have opted out of being friends with co-worker and other females for years.  For no reason other than the fact that I have had bad experiences with a great number of woman.  Now that I think about it, that is baggage from my past too.  The same thing holds true for relationships...... You can not enter into a relationship placing your new man under the same umbrella that your old men are under.  If you want to find true happiness, you have to let go of your past.  Your past can and will haunt you if you allow it to.  All of that baggage will keep you from being happy with yourself.  All that baggage will make you unlovable.  All of that baggage will cost you friends and family.  Most of all, I will take away your peace.

WOMAN WE ARE POWERFUL BEINGS AND IT IS IMPORTANT THAT WE ACT AS SUCH.  NOTHING AND NO ONE SHOULD HAVE THE POWER TO SLOW US DOWN AND/ OR HOLD US DOWN.  IF IT IS SOMEONE ELSE'S TRASH, IT WILL NEVER BE YOUR TREASURE!!!  WHETHER IT IS A GUCCI BAG OR A PAPER BAG, EMPTY THAT SHIT...... YOUR BACK WILL THANK YOU!!

ONE LONG GOODBYE

I really hate long goodbyes!!!  However, when you think about it that is just what life is.......... ONE LONG GOODBYE.  I am just leaving the hospital, I went to visit my Great Uncle who is dying.  He is the last of my grandfather's brothers and the historian of our family.  He has always been that "nosy" uncle that wants to know what is going on with everyone.  Now as an adult and a caring and nurturing person too, I know that is not the case.  He really was concerned about our well being.  He wanted to know that we were on the right track and that we tapped into that "Williams Power".  He would always tell me, you come from hard working successful people and you are just as good.  As I sat there and watched him lay in that bed I realize our family and the world was losing something great because he was a great man.  I felt a bit of disappointment in myself because I lived in Albany but I never visited......... I have been so wrapped up in my life that I neglected to visit as I once did.  Now my kids would never get to experience him as I had as a child and an adult.  Has I was leaving I was talking to his son who happens to be a doctor, and he explained his condition as a doctor would.  However, during the conversation he became a son that was battling with the fact that he was losing his father.  As me and my aunt started to cry, he said "God is a healer, and he will either be healed on this side or the other but he will be healed".  That really touched me because he was right.  I told him that something that I keep in my spirit, "God's will is greater then our desire"!!!  83 years on this earth, doing God's work is a long time.  I thank God for the time that he was with us because he has had a long goodbye...................

FEAR/PHOBIA

Well, I must first give credit to my friend Tracy Williams for suggesting that I write on the topic of Acrophobia. Acrophobia is defined as the extreme irrational fear of heights and is a specific phobia.........  In doing my research, I found that there are hundreds of different phobia's.  Some of the phobia's are just ridiculous to me while others were more understanding.  There were a number of them that stood out in regards to life and our attitudes.  Phobia's are like road blocks in a sense, they can slow you down, delay you, cause you to change direction or bring you to a complete halt.  Just as life is filled with pain and disappointment, it is also filled with love and opportunity but you have to be willing to take a chance.  


Everything that we encounter in life is not going to be pleasant. However, all of our experiences (good and bad) are beneficial.  We have the opportunity to learn from each mistake and/or disappointment that we encounter.  Many people suffer from Acrophobia and don't even know it.    They have been hurt so bad and disappointed so many times that they will not allow themselves to go to the next level......they are afraid of all of the highs that life may have to offer them.  So afraid of heights that they are willing to stay at ground level their entire lives.............. You can not let your past navigate your future because if you do, you are doomed.  Life is just like that hymn, "Jacobs Ladder", "every round goes higher and higher" but how will you know what the next round holds if you are afraid of heights.  All of the good stuff is at the top,  but you have to be brave enough to get it........ So what if you fail or get your heart broke, at least you tired and now you are better prepared for the next round.  You have to be open to the opportunities that await you.  You have no way of knowing what is going to happen until you try.  An honest attempt is so much greater then no effort at all.  So many people miss out on love, happiness,and/or financial stability all because they are afraid of heights.  This indeed is a sad way to live because you become your own worst enemy, hindering yourself from the chance to experience something great.   I would rather fall from the top or on my way to the top then to live at the bottom................  


What is your phobia, what are you allowing to hinder your progress?  Is you fear of heights blocking your love life?  Is it blocking you from making major moves in business?  You have to identify those things that you are afraid of and conquer them.  If you don't, be prepared to spend the rest of your life at ground zero.




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FIVE SHORT YEARS

 Five years ago today, I lost my best friend/sister, Shannette Perkins Elijah.  She was an amazing person and a loving mother.  We had a friendship that began when we were 9 years old and will last eternally.  Our friendship is a great example of many of the things that I speak on all the time.  We didn't always agree on things and there were times when we would argue and/or get mad with one another.  However, we never loved one another any less.  The were periods when we were too busy to talk to each other on a daily basis but when we did it was as if nothing had changed.  There was never a time that she needed me that I didn't come to her aid and vice versa.  We loved one another and no matter what happened we knew that and we always let that guide our friendship.  We have fun together, there was never a dull moment and there was never any jealousy or competition.  We never felt indifferent about friends that we obtained along the way because we knew that nothing would ever come between what she and I shared and even in death, this holds true.  I have other friends whom I love with all my heart and consider my sisters but she remains.  It is so amazing to me that after 5 years, it still hasn't got any easier.  I still miss her and think about her almost every day.  I guess that is because I carry her every where I go in my heart.....  I had to learn to forgive those that I felt hurt and disrespected her because that is what pleases God and if I want to see her again, I must do what pleases Him.  I have stopped mourning her death and started celebrating her life because she lived a full and wonderful life.  She left behind two precious children and it is partially my job to make sure they know what a beautiful, fun-loving person their mother was.  We are all born to die and nothing happens that He doesn't want to happen and God's will is so much greater then our desires.   I think God for placing her in all of our lives and allowing her light to shine upon us.  We are all given a gifts from God, the  first of those is the gift of life but we all have an individual gift as well.  For those of us who are blessed enough to be parents, this is another gift and it gives to the world.  She used her gifts and gave two gifts to the world, her mission was complete..............

Shannette's life and story is a great example of why you should never take the people you love for granted.  Some one that she loved and that I know loved her took her for granted, and they were never able to personally make things right.  Now they are haunted with that on a daily basis.  I know how that feels in a sense because at the time of her death she and I weren't speaking either.  However, there wasn't any wrong doing on either of our part just a difference of opinion, but it is still painful.  I think that a lot of times people do things under the assumption that they will do the right thing later but there are times when later never comes.  Then what?  How do you apologize to someone who is no longer capable of physically accepting it?  How do you find peace and know that all is forgiven?  God can give you peace in any situation but you have to be willing to see your faults and ask for forgiveness.  However, it is much easier than that, Just be mindful of the things that you do.  When you love a person never take them for granted.  Never neglect to tell them how you feel today.  Make sure that they know that you love them in spite of....... and not because of!!!!  If we build strong foundations in our relationship nothing, not even us can tear them down.

Lace "front"

Now here this!!!!  The people at the hair store are not your friends.  They tell you what you want to hear in order to make a sell.  Do you think Mrs. Sue is going to tell you that the hair isn't real and that it is going to tangle? HELL NO!!!!!!!! She has seen you come and go enough to know what type of money you are capable of spending and she intends to get you to spend it.  Say no to some of that shit, starting with those lace front wigs.  I swear if I see one more of those mofo's I am going to kill myself!!!  I mean really, who has a perfect hairline?  Who has a hairline that meets their eyebrows?  And who in the he!! has baby hair matted to their temples?  NOBODY, THAT'S WHO!!!!  Let that ish go!! Yes Beyonce and other celebrities have them but they can afford to purchase the ones that are made from quality hair.  They are also able to pay a stylist to make sure they are on properly and look as they should.  Unlike your a$$ who has to let Tam that works in the hair store put yours on, and that bitch isn't even a cosmetologist's play cousin!!!! Now you out in the street and in the club screaming it's Barbie bit$%es and you are almost right......... Because that hair looks like baby doll hair with wilted lettuce around the edges!!!  GIRL STOP!! When you know better you do better and your a$$ know better than that.  I am not hating on wig and/or weave wearers because I too am a "hair whore".  I just want some of you sister to use discretion......  

LOL!!

I HAVE LEARNED THAT MANY PEOPLE WEAR MASK IN ORDER TO APPEAL TO OTHERS.  THEY DO AND SAY THINGS THAT THEY THINK GET THEM RESPECT FROM THE PEOPLE THEY ARE WEARING THE MASK FOR.  THEY RUN AROUND TRYING TO ESTABLISH AN IMAGE THAT WILL MEET THE APPROVAL OF OTHERS.  HOWEVER, THE TRUTH IS THESE PEOPLE ARE JUST NOT INTERESTED IN THE REAL OR THE FAKE YOU.  THEY PROMOTE YOU DOING AND SAYING THINGS THAT ARE IGNORANT AND DAMAGING.  YOU ARE ACTING OUT THINKING THAT THESE INDIVIDUALS ARE LAUGHING WITH YOU WHEN IN ACTUALITY, THEY ARE LAUGHING AT YOU......... JUST AS YOU ARE WEARING A MASK TO IMPRESS THEM, THEY ARE WEARING A MASK TO DECEIVE YOU.

REAL FRIENDS LOVE YOU IN SPITE OF....... AND NOT BECAUSE OF.  THEY HAVE LEARNED TO LOOK PAST THE FACT THAT YOU ARE LAME, UGLY, MOODY, SELFISH AND OR A NUMBER OF OTHER NEGATIVE TRAITS.  I HAVE FRIENDS THAT ARE DEPENDABLE AND THOSE WHO ARE NOT BUT I LOVE THEM ALL...IN SPITE OF.  YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE TO TRANSFORM FOR THOSE WHO REALLY LOVE YOU.  LOVING A PERSON DOESN'T MEAN YOU THINK THAT THEY ARE PERFECT, IT JUST MEANS THAT YOUR CONNECTION IS GREATER IN SPITE OF ALL THE BULLSHIT. 

ALWAYS REMEMBER TO BEWARE OF PEOPLE WHO FIND HUMOR IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO.  THOSE WHO ARE ALWAYS ENCOURAGING YOU TO DO THE THINGS THAT YOU KNOW ARE WRONG.  A REAL FRIEND DOESN'T WANT YOU TO EMBARRASS YOURSELF BECAUSE THEY ARE HURT AND AFFECTED BY YOUR ACTIONS DUE TO YOUR CONNECTION.  THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING THAT YOU KNOW IS WRONG, TURN AROUND AND LOOK AT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE LAUGHING.............. THEN LOOK AT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE TRYING TO STOP YOU.  THE PEOPLE THAT ARE LAUGHING OUT LOUD ARE THE PEOPLE THAT YOU HAVE TO WEAR THE MASK FOR AND THEY ARE NOT YOUR TRUE FRIENDS.

ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF!

Hello friends, I wanted to take this time to introduce myself  to you.  My name is Maui but feel free to refer to me as Ms. B.  I am a very honest and fun loving person.  My intention here is to allow you access to my world and give you my personal point of view about all areas of life(and I do mean all).  By no means do I expect for you all to agree with me and I welcome your comments.  I know that some of the things I say will offend however, I can not and will not apologize for being me.............