THANKFUL!

I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am for all that God has done for me.  It is amazing what can occur and transpire throughout the course of a year.  This year has proved to be very challenging for me but I thank God for it all.  Last year this time I had gotten my first chemotherapy treatment for a cancerous tumor that was removed from my breast.  I remember feeling so alone and depressed.  There is nothing worse than feeling alone when you are surrounded by people who love you.  Well, that is that place that I was at....... BROKE!!!  Broke both spiritually and financially, BUT GOD!!  In the midst of me receiving all of these different medications to assure that I was Cancer free, I acquired a condition that affects my eyes, called Uvetis.  It was literally as if trouble was all around me.  I felt like I was in a tunnel and the lights were off............. their was no end in sight.  When I was physically alone, I cried like and baby but when others were around I kept quiet and smiled.  For a long time and even now there are a number of people who had no idea what I was going through.  I am such a strong person and that is what people see me as, and I refused to be anything less.  I was afraid of all the press that my illness would get from people in the street and more than that, of those who would speak death instead of life.  I am a firm believer that you can't share your life with everyone because their are negative people who's mind frame is just as damaging as a gun.


I thank God for His word and the vessels that he uses and for my ability to receive.  I remember one day I was in my room crying and my son came in.  He looked at me and said, "mama please don't die, me and Daja need you to raise us".  He made me realize that I needed to fight and that I had to.  After me and Zay finished talking, I got up and took a bath and during that bath I cried and I prayed.  I asked God to clean me!! To wash away all of that doubt!!  Then I promised God that I would be a better person if it was His will that I live through this situation.  I begin to change my attitude and be more positive from that day forward.  Now I am not going to lie and say that my life changed over night but I begin to feel better.  I felt better because I begin to appreciate the people around me, who loved me.  I begin to see all the things I had to be happy for.  I could identify with the fact my situation could be worse........  When I tell you that a positive attitude is just as important to your health as medication, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!!!  


Now during the course of this year, I have found so much to be thankful for; my God, my family, my friends, healing, happiness but most of all..........THIS JOURNEY!  This Journey has changed my life in ways that I never imagined.  I have become a greater woman all because of it.  I have learned to trust God.  I learned that you have to be open to receiving the love that people have for you.  I learned the value of my smile and that it is tied to the happiness of those who love me.  I learned not be consumed by pity, things and people.  All things that I have known for a while but along the way, I lost track of them.  This journey made me get back to the me that God always intended for me to be.  It has taught me that my trials are not just mine and to share them with others because I might be that vessel that God uses for some one else.  My testimony is filled with pain, not just the pain of this particular chapter of my life but many, many more.  And if I have to go through the hardship of reliving them all to help someone else, I will.  I know that all of the things I have encountered have been a set up so that I could do God's work.  So that I could help young girls and women that are in similar situations come out victorious.  So I say to you.................  TRUST GOD, BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE, WHO YOU ARE AND REMEMBER..............  ALL THINGS WORK FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE GOD!!!!

YOU ROCK!!

I have been sitting on this blog for a while for personal reasons, but I am officially ready to unleash.  I know that many people do a lot of bandwagon jumping when different events take place, and I did not want to be one of those people.  However, I have such a strong message attached to the movement.  Now that some of the hype has died down....I am ready to break my silence.  Well let me start by saying that the entire Black Girls Rock movement is great!!!  I think that it is important to continuously applaud and encourage the efforts of our young girls.  However there are so many others who ROCK and who need the same push.  People need to learn to love themselves and identify with what makes them ROCK.  I say it all the time, God created us all with purpose, with that purpose and hard work, we can all ROCK .  I know that all of us aren't bold and out going.  Some of us need that extra push or encouragement, and some are halted by fear.  These things are the reasons I am writing this blog.  


I just think that the Black Girls Rock! movement is amazing and very needed.  Our youth need to know how important and appreciated they are.  Honestly, I think that this holds true for so many people, not just black girls.     White girlS, Black boys, White boys, Men and Women of all races, ages and sizes.  We all need to be encouraged and made to feel important at some point.  There are a lot of people who work hard to make others smile, to make sure that things go and happen the way that they should and all they want is a pat on the back.  Although we all should be aware of our gifts and abilities, some people need to be reminded that they ROCK!!!


Let me tell you, God created us all with purpose and we have been given gift(s).  However, it is up to you to use what you are given.  You may not always have a fan club or cheerleaders, it is up to you to know that you ROCK!!  In order for you to know that you ROCK, you have to identify with why you ROCK!!!  Your positive attitude, your loving nature, your beauty, your compassion for others, all of these things and many others are why you ROCK!!!  What it is important to know is that your situation nor your circumstances make you and they can't break you unless you allow them to.  Many of you know exactly why you ROCK but you allow fear to paralyze you.  As long as you step into the waters, the fear of drowning no longer controls you no matter what happens from that point on.  The devil and all the naysayers want you to let fear control you.  They want you to believe that you don't ROCK.  They want you to give up on God's promise, but you got to keep it moving!!!


YOU ROCK!!!  AND I CAN'T STRESS IT ENOUGH!!  TAP INTO YOU GREATNESS AND MAKE YOUR MEANINGFUL IMPACT ON THE WORLD......................  WE ARE WAITING!!! AND IF NO ONE ELSE TELLS YOU.........................YOU ROCK!!!!!

100 YEARS OF OMEGA!

100 years of Omega

 The mighty purple and gold

The eternal brotherhood filled with Unconquerable Souls.

100 years of Omega

It all started at Howard U

With, JUST, LOVE, COOPER AND COLEMAN

The founders of the MIGHTY QUE!

100 years of Omega

They couldn't have known at all

What an impact was being made

In THIRKIELD HALL.

100 years of Omega

Although the story has been continuously told

One could never imagine  how ESSENTIAL

FRIENDSHIP WAS TO THEIR SOULS.

100 years of Omega

Thousands of strong, educated brothers

Knowing that if there wasn't OMEGA

They would never pledge another.

100 year of Omega

The Mighty Bruhz of Que

Through MANHOOD, SCHOLARSHIP, PRESEVERNCE AND UPLIFT

They always "SEE IT THROUGH".

100 years of Omega

Many often wonder

Why there is so much pride

In those SONS OF BLOOD AND THUNDER.

100 years of Omega

The BRUHZ will never die

As long as there is a strong, educated black man

There be a QUE PSI PHI!!!

Me

You can like it, you can love it or you can hate it.........  I'm going to be me!!!  I have lived my life for other's in the past but not anymore.  I live my life by my rules, because I have learned that is the only way to be happy in your life.  The first law of nature is self, so even when others love you and have your best interest at heart, they are their first priority. God created us all with purpose and he gave us certain things that make us who we are.  It took me a while to tap into the person that I was but now that I have arrived............. I aint going no where!!!  

Maui Bigelow, is one of the most honest, trust-worthy, loving people you may ever meet.  I love hard, like Mystikal said, "you best to be my enemy cause I'm a deadly friend"!!!  If I love you, I go hard for you and with you because I want the best for you.  Now with all the love that I have in my heart, there is still another side..... I have zero tolerance for bulls*&t and have no problem straightening what needs to be straight.  I am very verbal and will voice my opinion easily.  However, I never speak ignorantly, I speak on what I know, not what I think I know.  I know that my personality is not one that everyone can deal with but, it is mine.  I know that I am far from perfect but I try to be the best that I can.  My heart and my intentions are good and God loves that.  


I need for more people to start living for them and loving who they are, because if they did the world would be a much happier place.  Except who you are and know that you serve a purpose because if you didn't have a purpose..........God wouldn't have created you.  You have to except the fact that everyone is not going to be on your team and most importantly, you have to be fine with that.  Their are people in the world that are insecure and looking for someone to prey on, the moment you start to doubt who you are.................. you will become their victim.  You existence is sad when you allow other to hurt you with you........  When you are able to identify and accept who you are, you are in control.  You can change what you aren't happy with, embrace what you love and enhance what is lacking.  It is your prerogative to be exactly who you want to be, and to walk in God's purpose for you.  

OWN IT!!! (READ AT YOUR OWN RISK)

Well, life has hindered me from reaching out to you like I have wanted to, but I have so much to say!!!  I am sure that for the next couple of weeks you will be hearing a lot from me, because I have plenty that I plan to share.  Well there is something that bothers me about some people, that is their inability to identify with themselves.  It drives me crazy, and it make me sad for them.  How is it realistic for someone to lose sight of who they are and the things that they do?  I just don't get it!!!  No matter what you are, or what you do, you have to OWN IT!!!  If you don't like whatever it is, change it(if you can) or learn to live with it.  If you don't OWN IT, than it will own you and people will forever use it to hurt you.  

What a fool I would be if I got mad every time someone called me fat or implied that I was fat, knowing that I am.  I know that I am fat, hell I am the person that buy all my plus sized clothes, I look at myself in the mirror several times a day. So who cares how many times someone else says I am fat, It doesn't effect me and especially not in a negative way.  However, this would break some people down.  Now I know plenty of people who allow their reality to hurt them and I just don't get it.  The fact is the body is just a place of residency for the true person that you are.  Nothing that the world sees is you, it is just a shell.  I have heard people say a million times, "girl you got a pretty face", which I do identify with the fact that I have physical beauty.  But even if I were ugly as hell, I would still be just as great.  Now don't get me wrong, I love being ALL DOLLED UP (shameless plug.......lol) but when I am not, I am still just as beautiful.  I am not saying the package isn't an important part of life, because it is.  Your physical presentation is the first thing anyone sees and that is what they judge you according to initially.  So take care of yourself, make sure you look good but work on what is most important;  the beautiful you that lives within and if it is apart of you...... OWN IT!!!!


     I have a friend who is very promiscuous but if someone implies or states that she is, she get  hotter than a tea kettle.  This has been going on for years and for years it has puzzled me.  I mean come on, you have sex with three or four guys a month.  I think that it is safe to say, you are loose!!!  You are doing this by choice not force so you may as well OWN IT!!!  Unless of course you decide to stop............ I mean who the hell cares, if that is what you choose to do.  Just know that you are the reason that the label has been placed on you, so OWN IT!!!
What I am really trying to stress is that, you are who your are in spite of how good or bad it is and unless you have the ability to change it, you might as well OWN IT!!!  No matter what you do in this life, people are going to have something to say that doesn't agree with you and what you are doing, that is just one of the facts of life.  Fat, ugly, smart, pretty................. your physical presence is not who you are.  We are all like gifts, the wrap may be pretty and it may be ugly but either way, the good stuff should be inside.